i finally applied to Columbia and for reasons unknown to myself, i am very happy about this.
i think i am happy because, for the longest time, and it is still true, i believe Columbia is suppoed to be my salvation.
Columbia is where it's all supposed to happen for me.
I will write my most brilliant work, i will find the love of my life, i will be surrounded by people who are exactly like me and just fucking get me.
Columbia is like my mecca.
this, however, worries me.
what if columbia isn't what i thought it would be?
what if i'm stuck in the same situation i am now?
what if i don't meet anyone who likes/loves me?
ok...that's all for clarification time.